My (Work) Soulmate [Left] Me. – Part 2
I posted “My (Work) Soulmate is Leaving Me” just over a month ago from today, and my life feels completely different. I was laying awake in bed thinking about how much has changed and felt that an update was in order.
Part of me is still feels sad over the loss of the future I had imagined, but my perspective has shifted and other possibilities have come into focus.
See, the thing is, when she left, I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach and a choice clearly presented itself - I could repeat the pattern of stress, overwhelm and anxiety and spiral downward into oblivion, like I had basically done the first time around when I felt like the world and the fate of the law firm rested on my shoulders… OR I could try something different. I didn’t know what that “different” thing was at the time, but I feel that I made a decision that I wasn’t going to go down the same path as a few months earlier. Despite that decision, I was still filled with apprehension about the future and processing shock and grief from the sudden change of plans that wasn’t in alignment with my expectations.
The wave (ahem, tsunami) of emotions I was feeling caused me to act on some things that I am sure I wouldn’t have done otherwise, at not least as soon or with the same sense of urgency.
Without going into too much detail, I ended up doing some research on a six-day Transformational Breath Seminar that I had wanted to attend since being introduced to the technique in March, but I hadn’t lined it up/hadn’t made it happen. The Saturday immediately after her last day at the law firm, I Googled when the next seminar was, which just so happened to be one week away, technically within driving distance – about 6 hours away, an hour and a half past Chicago. Most of the other seminars were in California, Florida, or in other countries around the world, and the next seminar within reach wasn’t for another six months.